I had treatment yesterday, and I have gotten to really good place about them. I know I will feel crummy...I know it will pass and I will get back to myself and have a really good stretch before I have to feel crummy again.
Now what I cannot seem to find a positive spin about...a way to see this through that rose colored glass is my CA-125. Those not in the ovarian cancer know...this test is to measure the protein that ovarian cancer cells produce in my blood. A normal woman (I know...I know...I have never been normal) should have a score around 35. Pre-surgery mine was 18,000...post surgery it was 2700...last October it was 338...July it was 150...yesterday it was 266. I was told not to worry unless it doubled or something. We haven't reached that double place yet. I have had physical exams (super awesome and totally non invasive let me tell ya). CT scans (at least 3 of these) and even a PET scan that left me radioactive for 5 hours. All scans and exams are clear...so why in the good lord's name does this damn tumor marker keep going up?
So if anyone out in cyberspace has any suggestions for how I can spin this into a glass half full scenario...that doesn't include "look how far you've come"...I would really appreciate it.
Love to all
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