My sweet daughter spends Wednesday nights with her Great Aunt Maa. It gives her a much needed break from the stress and drama of having a sick mommy, and it gives me the opportunity to be weak for one night. I don't have to worry about putting on the brave face and hiding my fear or worry for her. Trust me, I have gotten really good at being brave and hiding fear for her...for the most part... I don't even have to think about it anymore. It really isn't even bravery...it is just a big push for normalcy...business as usual home life. Every so often on a Wednesday night I get to fall apart...I get to be scared and actually voice some of those fears to my Mommy. It is cathartic and I ALWAYS feel better after I let some of it out. I'm a little like a pressure cooker...every so often I need to let something escape...or I might explode like the hard boiled egg my mom tried to microwave this morning (I mean seriously blasted to bits egg all over the inside of our microwave...heehee). So for a few moments this evening...I let it out...the fear...the stress..the worry...the sheer exhaustion of having no answers to some really heavy questions. I genuinely feel better. I think I might even try to put real clothes on tomorrow...then again pajama days are pretty great.
Another totally unrelated ray of sunshine. My daughter has discovered the joy to be had experiencing Monty Python. I am a moderately protective mother, so I browse for clips of The Holy Grail on YouTube. We watched the "French Taunting," and for now I think that should be enough...maybe the knight who guards the bridge...and of course the coconuts...etc. She laughed at the taunting...I mean who can keep a straight face while listening to men talk about "farting in our general direction" or "calling us silly english pig dogs." Well it need to be said that Maa's husband Gil introduced me to Monty Python when I was about 14 years old. I loved him and we shared a similar taste in silly slightly off beat movies and music (Pee Wee's Big Adventure, Monty Python, Harold and Maude...). So sweet daughter is @ Maa's house for her sleepover and she asked all innocent like..."Maa do you know about Monty Python?" My aunt said..."Yes sweetie...do YOU know about Monty Python?" So Robin shows her the video and they have a great conversation about how much Gil loved Monty Python...in all honesty several of the men in my family LOVE Monty Python. So now there is a new generation of the family loving the hilarity of the slightly offbeat. Thanks Gil!
Sorry for the wordy post...I had bunches to say. To recap...I am thankful for much needed come aparts and Monty Python! I will be linking to my Facebook everyday. I figure these can be for my 30 days of thankfulness in November that so many of my friends are doing...I'll just be a few days over the 30. Good night friends
To the Moon and Back,
Videos of the day...everyone should see this..I dare you to not smile!